'It is better to light a candle than curse the darkness' Proverb

Sunday 30 July 2017

Beating PCOS: initial treatment


This is the second blog in my series on having PCOS.  In my first blog I wrote about what PCOS actually is and how I was diagnosed with it. In this blog I want to go through some of the treatments I've had to deal with the effects of having it.

As I said in my first blog, the doctor who adviced me that I actually had PCOS was not helpful at all and only told me to come back once I wanted to have children.  However, once I went back to my actual doctor we discussed it a little further, looking at the effect it was having on my menstrual cycle.  Whilst the idea of never having a period is a great one it, unfortunately, it is not particularly good for you if it doesn't occur naturally and increases the chance of you getting endometrial cancer (also called womb or uterus cancer).  The endometrium is the lining of the uterus and, during a normal menstual cycle, it is exposed to hormones like oestrogen causing it to thicken.  If pregnancy doesn't occur the endometrium sheds itself causing us to menstruate.  However, when ovulation doesn't occur, as in PCOS, the lining doesn't shed but is instead exposed to higher levels of oestrogen, causing the endometrium to grow much thicker than normal.  This increases the chance of cancer cells beginning to grow.  As products like the pill keeps your hormone levels low, the endometrial lining remains thin and there is a dramatic reduction in the risk of getting endometrial cancer.  

I had already been on the pill for many years and so had already been receiving the benefit from this, but I wanted to move onto another form of contraception as I didn't like taking the pill on a daily basis and had found in my research that taking the pill may increase insulin resistance (something you don't need help with when you have PCOS), the risk of having a heart attack or a stroke, and lowers the levels of some nutrients we need such as B-vitamins and vitamin C and E.  To start with I went back on the contraception injections, but that just turned me into a complete psycho with no control over my emotions, and then the coil, but that didn't suit me at all and just caused me to bleed constantly.  Now I'm on the NuvaRing which is working out really well (maybe I'll do a blog on my contraception journey).  It regulates my periods, but as the hormones are localised it doesn't seem to have any effect on my moods and is very easy to use.  So that's the endometrial cancer dealt with - hopefully.

Unfortunately taking the pill (and then the later forms of contraception) didn't have any positive effect on my weight.  In fact, it might have actually made me put on weight.  For that I've worked on my diet, which I'll go into on another blog, and that has made a massive difference not only to my size but my general well-being and other factors in connection to PCOS.  The pill also didn't have any positive impact on my hairiness either, for that I had to go down a slightly more painful route.

PCOS for me started when puberty did and by 15 I had a very curvy body I didn't know what to do with and I had begun to be very hairy.  Most of the areas I could deal with in the normal manner and wasn't too bothered about (apart from the hairy, hobbit's feet), but I was very conscious of the hair I had on my face as it was obvious to everyone on  daily basis.  To begin with I tried bleaching the hair, but as I have olive skin the blonde hair was just as obvious as the dark, so I moved to waxing.  This was very painful and, though it was pretty effective, difficult to do without other people seeing you do it (I was in boarding school) and the permanent effect would take a while to take hold.  Thankfully I was lucky enough to have parents who arranged for me to have laser treatment on my face.  This was also quite painful and made my face just as red as the waxing, but it wasn't as painful as the waxing and had much more lasting effects at a quicker rate.  Unfortunately laser treatment is only really effective if you have dark hair and pale skin, so !at not be suitable for everyone having the same issues.

The laser did a good job at helping to reduce the hair, but it was still obvious a lot of the time and after a while I returned to waxing during most of my 20s as it was cheaper and easier to find locations where this was available.  Then in my late 20s the beautician who carried out my waxing told me she had been training in electrolysis.  So I did some research on this and, as I trust my beautician completely, decided to give it a go.  Electrolysis is where a tiny needle like rod is inserted down the hair follicle to the root and a small charge is passed through it.  This damages the root either by heat or a chemical reaction or both.  It is most effective when they are able to catch the hair whilst it is still growing, but unfortunately it's not as effective if the hair has stopped growing and the root is resting.  This is not the cheapest treatment (it's also not ridiculously expensive either) and I found it pretty painful.  Definitely the most painful of my hair removal treatments.  However, it is definitely the most effective in permanently removing the hair and, while I do have some hair still here and there around my face, I don't feel like I have the full on moustache and beard I used to have.  There are still some hairs, but right now I'm happy to just treat them on my own for now.  It is meant to be for all hair and skin types (unlike laser treatment), however, the pain level does seem to depend on your hair colour.  I would recommend looking at it is you're interested in permanently removing hair and I am thinking of going back to carry on treating my upper lip area.

So that is what I did initially to deal with the effects of PCOS, but once the diagnosis was confirmed I started doing more research into it.  I'm not someone who likes to use medicine all the time to fix a problem and wanted to find a more natural solution to this illness.  That is when I started looking at ways in which my diet could actually work against PCOS and help me with my hair, weight, and periods.  And that will be in my next blog.

If you would like to read my first blog you can find it here.


Sunday 23 July 2017

My favourite clothing - work





My life has changed significantly over the last few months and my wardrobe has gone through a change to suit the new job that I have.  My career has changed from an office bound administration job to doing a traineeship in upland path construction where I'm outside every day.  The pencil skirts and smart tops have now changed from outdoor trousers and base layers.  I do have some new items (though some I have had for many years as part of my hill walking kit), but my favourite work gear that I always reach for first have turned out to be the items I brought second hand.




When it comes to trousers I always reach for the my army trousers.  They are both exactly the same style (French, 80s, women's) in camouflage and lightweight colours and I love these.  Firstly, they are one of the best fit trousers I've ever had which actually fit my figure (absolute miracle when you have a curvy body); secondly, they are really comfortable and easy to move around in; and thirdly, they are high waisted which means I don't have to worry about flashing people when I'm moving around.  Most importantly, they have held up to all the things I put them through without snagging or ripping.  They were a bit pricey for a second hand item at £18 each, but they were worth the price and unfortunately the British style (which I could get for cheaper) don't fit as well which usually means rubbing along my waist.  I usually wear my Elvis & Kresse belt made from used British Fire Brigade hoses, but unfortunately it doesn' fit into the belt loop holes of the lightweight trousers, so I've brought a second hand belt for that particular pair.



I pretty much wear long sleeves tops every day, even when it's sunny and hot, as it protects me from the midges, scratchy plants, and ticks.  I've got three, but the two I wear the most I got from the British Heart Foundation for £1.99 each.  My favourite is the stripy top from F&F Clothing as it fits so well, but I do like the bagginess of the Tommy Hilfiger top.  The Hilfiger top also makes me laugh when I wear it as it used to be all the rage when I was a teenager in the 1990's, but I shouldn't afford the brand.  Now I'm wearing it to do manual work.


When I do need a jumper I bounce between my Trespass fleece, which I've had for over 10 years now and is still really warm - it's my go to, and my woolly jumper that my Nan knitted for my older brother, which then got passed down to me.  I got it when I was 12 (23 years ago) and it's a little bit too small, but it's still holding on and puts up with a lot of heavy work and heavy washing.  I will keep wearing this until it falls apart. Thanks Nan. 💓

I don't have a lot of work clothes and I put them through a lot, but they all stand up well and show that second hand or old are not necessarily second in quality.  I'm definitely a lot happier in these clothes then the smart office clothes I wore before.

Sunday 16 July 2017

Living in one room


At the moment I'm doing a traineeship in the Cairngorms on path building and, as it's only for 6 months and I don't have a lot of money coming in, I decided to only rent a room.  It's definitely fitted the purpose, but after years of living in a flats and bedsits on my own with multiple rooms (the properties I lived in which were labelled bedsits had a bedroom/ living room, kitchen, and my own bathroom so not really the typical bedsit) I thought it would be interesting to see how well I could do it again.

I had a few memories to fall back on, such as boarding school where you only had the space around your bed and flat sharing with just the room.  There is almost always communal space, but I'm a bit of an introvert and spending time on my own is a necessity meaning I spent a lot of time in my room.  To begin with I had my stuff everywhere, basically wherever I could fit it, but after a while it began to make sense to separate which ever room I was in into sections and organise my things accordingly.  So that's what I've done here.



When you come through the door there is a large window on the left which my landlord has put this large mirror.  I use this point for the things I need to remember before I leave for the day, such as SPF, my antihistamines, and my cycling helmet.  I also keep my hairbrush and hair ties.



There are two wardrobes in the room, but I only have use of one, which I use for all my non work clothing.  I have a lot more clothing then I actually need and I still have items at my partners, but I like having the choice and at the moment I wear all of them.  I'm not buying non work clothing at the moment and as items wear out I'll not replace them until I have a much smaller wardrobe.  I also keep my reusable bags, bags I use for travelling, and shoes.  My waterproof work bag and yoga mat also stay here as well as this is where there is the most space in the room.



Beside the wardrobe is a TV I never actually use, but the storage unit underneath is where I keep my cleaning supplies.  As I only have to keep my room clean I only have a microfiber duster (it collects and holds onto the dust instead of just throwing it into the air - very important when you have dust allergies), water and vinegar solution for the glass and mirrors with a micro- cloth, Milton for my Mooncup, and shoe polish for my work shoes.  I also have bicarb soda which is a good all round scrubber and deodoriser.



There is this very long storage unit against the wall (with my landlord's magazines).  I store my very old and dying laptop in the open section.  I use the top draw for the stationary I'm using for my traineeship and my maps.  The draw below is basically my junk draw in which I just shove everything I don't have a place for.  This is a draw I need to organise over the next week.  The basket contains all my toiletries that I'm using at the moment, including the perfume and nail polish I'm using in this year's Project Pan.  There isn't really anywhere else for me to store these and the basket keeps them all together and out of the sun.  I'll hopefully be able to use a smaller basket by the end of the year.  I also keep the course work I'm working on at the time on top to remind me to keep working at it.  The last item is my laundry basket with my home made laundry powder.



Opposite the storage unit is a chest of drawers in which I keep all my work clothes (underwear on top, trousers, long-sleeve tops and short-sleeve tops in the middle, hats, scarves, and gloves at the bottom.  As I live in this room and have no desk to work or eat on, so I have a tray so I can work on eat either on my bed or on the chair in the room.  This is also where I keep my sunset alarm clock, water bottle and mobile phone when I'm not out.  I also keep my binoculars here (you never know when you might see something out your window) and my diary so I can have a look at my to-dos when I first wake up.



My only personalisation of the room is my wolf pillow that I keep on the bed.  I don't really like having a lot of nick nacks around and this is all I need to make this space feel like mine.  All my jackets and waterproofs are kept on the door.



The last piece of furniture in the room is a bedside table.  The bottom draw has all my spare toiletries (mainly antihistamines) and the makeup I'm working on.  The top draw is my bedside table draw and has everything I use in my night time routine, including my lip balm, hand cream, diary and what I'm reading at the moment.  I'm trying to read a little everyday just before I go to sleep so that I'm not watching a programme on my tablet up until that point. 

As I'm out most of the day the size of the room doesn't really matter to me and, if I'm feeling a little bit trapped, it not difficult for me to get out into the country side.  Keeping my things to a bare minimum and in order also helps stop me feeling overwhelmed by all the stuff.  I still have just over another four months of living here, but so far it has been a good reminder of how little I need to live.  In fact, I probably have more with me then I actually need.  I'm not quite ready yet to go completely bare minimum, but as I use up and don't replace products all the items I own will naturally reduce on it's own.  The items I've left at my partner's are items and products I don't feel I need at the moment and these are the items I've been decluttering from.

I don't ever want to live in a large space, it doesn't seem viable or sensible both financially and environmentally, and this has highlighted to me just has easy it would be for me to do so.  All I need to do now is get rid of some more stuff.

Sunday 9 July 2017

Mini Movie Review: Super Size Me


Okay, so I'm not going to lie, a lot of the documentary movies I watch do revolve around food.  This is possibly because I spend a lot of time thinking about it as I try to eat less processed, more sustainable food.  I watched this movie a while ago and really liked it, so I decided to watch it again recently.

The premise is that Morgan Spurlock changes his diet for one month to only food from McDonald's and agrees to have his meal 'super-sized' whenever they ask him. It follows the usual route with Morgan seeing doctors before hand who advise him against this, him enjoying the start of it, then his body really reacting badly to this diet and the doctors and specialists being absolutely horrified that the results were so much worse then they were expecting.  The damage it does to his body over such a short period of time is pretty amazing, but not really surprising.  One of the most memorable bits is where he's forcing himself to have yet another meal and ends up having to quickly open the car door to throw up.  

It's not exactly surprising that eating that amount of fast food isn't good for you or that McDonald's uses clever marketing to get people to repeatedly choice their products despite the health implications, but it's still a very compelling documentary and a good reminder of that this type of food is actually doing to you.

The main thing that I've taken out of this movie is not that McDonald's is evil, though they're not great, but that all processed food with the same levels of sugar and salt is not only highly addictive but has serious implications for your health.  Even if you never went to a fast food restaurant but only ate processed food at home the effect on your body would be very similar.  It's also a good reminder of what happens when we allow companies that provide us with the food we eat to treat it as a commodity rather than a hugely important factor in our lives.  When they only see if as an object for making money the actual effect it is having on us becomes much less important than the effect it is having on us.

I do still eat processed food and I do still eat at fast food restaurants, but just not as much as before.  I try to make sure that, at the very least, my diet is 90% unprocessed foods made from scratch. This is not only better for me but is also much better for the environment.  And I feel all the better for it.


Sunday 2 July 2017

Project Pan 2017 Update #6 and some decluttering


Throughout this month the words that have run through my head have been ' slow and steady' and that is precisely what this project this year has been.


Let's start this month with the one product I have managed to finish and that is the Barry M nail paint in Cyan.  This is a beautiful colour and I've actually quite enjoyed wearing it everyday (probably because blue is my favourite colour).   I wasn't able to reach right down to the bottom as the polish became too thick to use, but as I'm not wanting to worry about using thinner or anything like that this is now being classed as done.  I have already moved onto the Barry M nail paint in Black.  Barry M is cruelty free and I love the colour, but as I want a more natural polish and am looking to only own one or two in the future I won't be buying this one again.


As I am no longer doing my face makeup on a daily basis there isn't a lot of obvious change in my eyeshadows.  When I have been wearing makeup recently I have been using my Urban Decay Naked original palette.  You can't see any actual changes in this, but it has reminded me just how much I love this palette.  For my single eyeshadows in the Z palette I have only really been using the Natural Collections shadow in Sable (there is an obvious change there) and The Body Shop shadow in Coconut About Me.  I did try the Max Factor shadow in Untamed Green but it really didn't have good staying power nor did it suit my skin tone at all so I'm just going to get rid of it.  I'm also going to get rid of the other single eyeshadows as well (apart from Sable) as I've made good progress on them and I feel happy just letting them go now.  They are also not my favourite products to use and I don't want to keep using products I don't like over others when I'm no longer wearing makeup everyday.


I had hoped to have finished my Jean Paul Gaultier Eau De Parfum by the end of this month and I'm so close!  But unfortunately I still have a little bit left at the bottom.  I will carry on using this on a daily basis and hopefully it will be gone my next month's update.


The progress on my Barbara Day eye primer has (not surprising) slowed considerably.  There is still some sign of movement at the top but still not enough for me to be able to mark a line on it yet.


The MUA powder foundation in Shade 4 and the Bourjois blusher in Ceidre 48 are still the never ending stories when in comes to progress.  I am getting a little bored of using them so I might bring some other products next month to give myself a break.  At the end of the year, if not before, I will definitely think about decluttering these.

And that's it.  This blog is definitely getting shorter to write about now that the products are going down.  I've started looking at other products I want to add to the list as I work my way through and will hopefully get to them before the end of the year.

To see my progress so far: